An honest, raw, and intoxicating collection of poetry from the #1 Bestselling author of The Night I Spent with Aubrey Fisher and Keep You.

Because the day I came alive was the day I chose to love myself again.

Christopher M. Tantillo’s poetry debut, things i never got to tell you, is the first book in a trilogy that weaves personal narratives with professions about how we find ourselves in the many varied stages of falling in and out of love with others and ourselves. It paints a loose narrative as we navigate love, loss, grief, heartbreak, hope, betrayal, death, what it means to be a man expressing emotions, how we romanticize people and places and memories, and ultimately, healing. Like life ebbs and flows, the poems bounce from dismay to infatuation with the turn of a page.

Tantillo weaves an experience that will leave you heartbroken, seduced, and introspective on your own relationships, past and present. The collection invites the reader to reflect on the things they never got to tell to the people they loved, or that loved them.

Trigger Warnings
This book contains and implies scenes/themes related to abandonment, abuse (emotional, physical, sexual), anxiety, body dysmorphia, bullying, crude language, death, depression, drug and alcohol use, eating disorders, homophobic slurs (only used for thematic context and the author does not endorse such language/views), imagery of harm and violence, neglect, self-harm, sexual assault, and suicidal ideation. Please practice self-care before, during, and after reading. Know that it’s okay to put this down and come back to it later. Your health and safety should always come first.

If you or anyone you know is suffering with thoughts of suicide or self-harm, please seek a professional as soon as possible. Or call or text 988, the Suicide and Crisis Lifeline.

If you or anyone you know has survived any act of sexual violence, please visit https://www.rainn.org/. Or call the 24/7 hotline at 800-656-HOPE (4673).

If you or anyone you know is suffering from an eating disorder, please call the helpline for the National Alliance of Eating Disorders at 866-662-1235. Or reach out via email to referrals@allianceforeatingdisorders.com.

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